Thursday, December 31, 2015

Important Info and Super Long Ramble

Ok, important info first!


Mom sent you a big check, and it should already be there. So please, check your mail, grab it, and then either reply/text me or call mom to let her know you got it. She's very worried about it making it to your hands!

Texas House Stuff

Also, she requested that I pass on some info to you. The info is, if Gary & I don't take the house, she wants to offer it to you. It will be paid off very soon and there will just be a couple hundred dollars A YEAR in taxes to pay. Because I know she's going to ask you if I mentioned it, she wanted to propose that you move into the house for a year or two, with no rent whatsoever, and get an Opportunity Plan family loan for living expenses, just to finish school in something and then move back to CO. Just think about it. I have no idea what your life goals are, but if going to school for something is in there, that would be a great way to do it.

That being said! It looks like we are in fact going to take the house, renovate it, and sell it. We're going to try to do it very fast, like in a year, and then decide where to settle after that using the money for a down payment on a house somewhere. Maybe east, maybe west. Maybe back in Michigan, who knows?
The only way we wouldn't do that is because we find a big enough reason not to, or if you want to do the above plan instead. I would totally defer to you so you could get ahead.

Hopes for Texas

I really expect that we will be moving the beginning of March, after our tax return comes. I hope this is smart. It feels smart, but it also feels scary. Scary and huge and no guarantee, but let me explain what I hope will happen.
Gary's going to quit his job anyways. The company is folding, everything is tense and awful, and he makes no money above the 30k salary. Just for comparison, at his other store before the fall out, he was on track to make $60k for the year. So, he is not going to be working at LL anymore either way. He is going to have to find a new job, either way. And start at the bottom, all over again, either way.

And I still am worthless at bringing in money. I had my DT job for 3 weeks before I had to call in 3 days in a row because one of his guys quit. And I still was making minimum wage, which would not change in Texas, but *goes farther* there.

So the plan is, use our tax return to file bankruptcy, move, and buy a vehicle. House gets transferred to us, then mom gives us money monthly to work on the house, which we do when we're not working. Jobs cover living expenses. We work hard, fast, & smart, and get the house ready to sell in a year. The economy is really good there right now, similar houses are selling in the $160k range. Assuming we sell it for $150k, pay back $80k to recapture fee, $40k to mom for renovations, we get 30k.

Take $10k to make a really nice snowcone stand for summer income, put 10k in the bank, 10k down payment on house somewhere.

Get jobs wherever we land, make decent side income in the summer, have a house and a place to live for the price of rent for as long as is good. That honestly sounds pretty good to me.

And meanwhile, keep writing books in the hopes that I can make equal to a part-time income at it, so I can stay home with Maggie until she stars kindergarten. And maybe longer.


Speaking of Writing...

I'm almost done with my first draft. I'm not going to hit 'done' in 2015 (considering this is the last day of the year :p) But I am pretty close and will finish in January. Then comes editing, and plotting book 2. In Feb I will start writing Book 2. Yes, while packing. :p

I did find out however that Amazon has an algorithm that check to see if your book has ever been published anywhere before. Because of that, I am going to have to take down the chapters I put here, just in case. I do hope you still want to read it, so if you do we will do email.

I also hope you're willing to give me hardcore critique as I edit chapters. I neeeed it. I only have 1 other person to ask, and she's probably afraid of hurting my feelings too. And you guys might! But that is OKAY and NECESSARY lol, if I want this book to be better, and I do. So badly.

I would love it if we could skype sometime, not video but maybe chat, because I also love your brainstorming help. If you don't feel like it or dont have time, that is okay, just thought I would put in an earworm. :p

I got really lucky and am taking 2 free writing workshops this month, that are usually hundreds of dollars. They both last the whole month, but hopefully those will help as I edit too, although those are more big picture stuff instead of focused craft stuff


PICTURES!

And now for the best part of course. :p

 Maggie looking cute.



Girls in their Christmas dresses, that Gary picked out!

He was trying to make a silly face, but instead it looks like he hates pictures, lol.
But I look good, so whatever. :p


 Kisses.

 Willow got Minecraft for Christmas! This her playing. She's sick with it lol.
But I have got her to do a lot of chores for extra play time. :p Win win!

Dressed herself, but still adorbs! <3


Love you sis, hope to hear from you soon! Don't forget to let one of us know you got your check!

Wednesday, December 16, 2015

Just a couple recent pics


Our girls at a Christmas party at the local store, with balloon art.




Willow got a Barbie make-up kit for Christmas (yes she already opened it) and gave us all makeovers!

I have no news that I can think of at the moment, but I guess I could post some more book related stuff if you want.
I just don't want to burn you out on it lol.

We love you, hope you continue to feel better. Also can I give Connie your phone number? She says she has an idea to help you get your surgery.

Huggles, miss.

Thursday, December 10, 2015

Chapter 2



Notes: 
1)He's supposed to be emotionally stunted because he's not wholly human. That's the reason for all the "huh, what's this feeling?" type things.
2)I am torn between making her believe completely in what she saw or believing the logical explanation more. That's why she seems to change her mind quickly. Not sure which I'm going with yet.

Comments required at the end of course. :p Huggles.
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Chapter 2




Brooke stared out the window. The hospital building obscured all but a small slice of scenery; a narrow strip of city lights against the darkness of night. Inexplicably, tears welled in her eyes, and the orange sulfur streetlights blurred into a wavery mass not too different from flames. She swiped her stinging eyes with the back of the arm that didn't have any tubes.

She would be released in the morning, not too much worse for wear. Well, except for her foot and leg. She shifted the sheet off of it, looking at the mass of bandages. She really was very lucky. Everyone kept saying so.

The burns weren't too severe, and would only require salve and bandages for awhile. Her throat was raw like it had been scrubbed with a wire brush, but the damage would heal in a few days. Her lungs hurt, but even without the oxygen they gave her, her breathing had recovered remarkably quickly for someone who inhaled massive amounts of smoke. She had a pounding headache and felt a little sick to her stomach too, but all things considered, she was really lucky.

Smoke inhalation usually kills people before the flames do.
Yeah, she could believe it. She remembered the weakness, the dizziness. The apathy, as she looked at the danger all around her and couldn't summon the energy or the breath to do anything about it.

She shivered at the recall. She remembered something else, too. Something inconceivable.

Just then, a knock came from the door, and it opened up quickly to a large bouquet with balloons.

“Helllooooo Brooke, my dear.”

Debbie, her boss from the paper, pushed her way in behind the bouquet. Brooke took a steadying breath. She was a sweet, old-fashioned lady in her sixties, who dyed her blunt shoulder-length bob a deep red and had blue eyeshadow as thick as her Texan accent.

“Come in,” rasped Brooke.

“Oh my darling, I just couldn't believe it when I heard what happened! You poor thing. You're so very lucky.”

Debbie set down the flowers and came over to the bed. She grabbed Brooke's hand in hers, studying her with pursed lips.

“We're all so glad you're alright. Don't worry about the paper, okay? You've got two weeks off, paid, and since the Spring Wedding issue is out already, everything's going to be pretty low-key for a while. Adam is helping us, telecommuting, sending us all the ads from where he is. If you need more time, it shouldn't be a problem.”

Brooke swallowed what felt like broken glass and tried for a little smile. “Thanks.”

Debbie patted her hand and pulled a chair up to her bedside. She sat down and opened her over-sized handbag, pulling out an open notebook and pen.

“Now I know you can't talk much, so I'll try to just ask yes or no questions and you can nod.” The pen clicked, at the ready.

The change from concerned boss to reporter with a story happened so fast Brooke didn't know whether to laugh or be insulted. Yes, Debbie was editor-in-chief, but they all had multiple roles when staffing was short. And staffing was always short at a small town paper.

“The fire department says the fire started about nine a.m. Does that sound right?"

She hadn't been able to eat much breakfast, way too excited to walk to the convenience store and get her paper. Then mailed it to her mother. Flirted with an extraordinary stranger on the sidewalk. How long had all that taken? She tried to remember, but all she could think of was the choking smoke, the heat. Desperate for a single good breath.

She squeezed her eyes shut and nodded.

Debbie, noticing her reaction, grabbed her hand again and gave her a gentle squeeze and a sympathetic smile.

"I know it's hard. I'm sorry we have to do this now," she said, her expression changing from regret to pleading. "It's for tomorrow's edition.”

Brooke nodded to let her know it was okay, though it felt anything but.

Debbie took back her own hand after a final quick squeeze.

“The initial statement is that they think this was some kind of gas explosion, does your experience coincide with that assumption?”

Brooke focused her thoughts on the moment she turned her key in the lock; the slight rumbling vibration that she felt through the floor and the door knob.

In hindsight, she's been an enormous idiot. Her few minutes of waiting to be certain of danger, were exactly what put her in that life threatening position.

With tight swallow, she said, "Yes. I felt the building shake a little bit. But I didn't know what it was."

“Did you smell any gas?”

She shook her head.

“Did you see any other residents?”

Brooke hesitated a moment before saying no, but Debbie didn't catch it.

“You were trapped momentarily, correct?”

She let out a wavery breath as that oppressive, hot feeling from the stairwell crept back. The burn of the smoke in her throat and nose and lungs. Realizing that she'd lost consciousness and caught on fire. If it hadn't been for...

She nodded.

Debbie put away her pad and pen and stood, her voice and gaze softening.

“I'm sorry, I'm done.” She stood and fluffed Brooke's pillows and pulled the thin blanket up to her chest.

“Listen,” she said, grabbing Brooke's hand into her own again. “I already spoke to the paramedics and the E.R. staff, your injuries are pretty minor. I'm sorry to tell you though, that your apartment's... ” She shook her head. “The management company is going to put you up in a hotel until they can find you a place though, okay?”

Brooke closed her eyes, nodding.

The one good thing about being a workaholic is that she didn't have too many irreplaceable things in her apartment. Except for a few pictures, most of her memories were still in boxes at her childhood home.

When she opened her eyes, Debbie's face held another concerned smile.

“The Red Cross is going to help you with necessities and clothing. They've got resources to help you with literally everything.”

Debbie patted her hand. Standing, she slung her large bag over her shoulder.

“I've got to go type this up for the morning. If there's anything else you need, just let me know, okay?” A quick kiss to Brooke's cheek, and she turned away.

Before she made it out all the way out the door, Brooke came to a decision.

“Debbie?”, Brooke asked with a croak.

She stopped with her hand on the door and looked back at her. “Yes?”

Brooke looked down at the sheet she was strangling in her hands.

“Did anybody say anything about a... a man?”, she asked hoarsely, looking at Debbie from under her bangs.

“A man?”

Brooke nodded.

Debbie turned back into the room, her face serious. “Well honey, there was a man killed in the fire. Another resident. Did you know him?”

Brooke was shaking her head before Debbie even finished. Yes, she'd heard, and she felt bad for not wanting to think about him, but her mind was set instead on her rescuer.

“No, there was a man there. He... he saved me,” she said, tapering off to a whisper. “He got me out of there.”

Debbie eyes lit with intense interest and she came to her bedside once again.

“Do you mean a firefighter?”, she asked curiously.

“No. He was... ”

Different? God-like? On fire?

“ ...Good looking. Dark hair. Light eyes. Black leather jacket.”


She'd already asked the paramedic, the nurse and a few others. No one knew anything about the darkly handsome man who had carried her out of the blaze. After plenty of introspective thought and examination of her memories, a hallucination didn't explain her escape from the burning apartment building. She'd been suffocating, burning.

Dying.

“No, no one's mentioned anything about it. You said he saved you?”, Debbie asked, amazement and curiosity in her voice.

Nodding, Brooke said, “I was stuck in the stairwell. I couldn’t find my way out, and I couldn't catch my breath. I was dizzy. My foot…” Brooke paused, twisting the sheets in her hands again. “He carried me out.”

The hungry reporter was back instantly. The notepad and pen came out, and Debbie scribbled across the pad.

“Did he go back into the building?”

Brooke frowned at the new and horrifying possibility. But... from what she remembered, even if he had, he should have been okay, right?

“I don't know. He wasn't there when I woke. Just the paramedics.”

"Can you give us a description? Will you talk to Cecil tomorrow?"

Cecil was their crime-beat reporter, and a retired police artist. Brooke nodded.

"Great," Debbie said with a grin, "We'll find him!"

She rushed out the door, calling out, “Anything you need, call me!” The door snapped shut.


Brooke sighed as she laid back, gaze once again on the tiny slice of orange city lights.

What if he didn't want to be found? Her brow wrinkled. A man with those kinds of abilities probably wanted to keep a low profile. But she just desperately wanted, needed, to say thank you for rescuing her.

And to find out if he started it.

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"What the fuck is this?"

A newspaper slapped down on the table in front of Levi as he ate his third protein bar. He looked at the paper, and then at Walker who stood there implacable, arms crossed.

"A newspaper?", he drawled, ignoring it on the table. Walker chewed his ass so bad when they got back from the fire, that he still simmered, days later. The worst part was that everything Walker said rang true. He fucked up. It still sat under his skin like a thorn though, pricking him. And every time he thought about it, his powers surged. So he tried not too.

"No shit. Open it." Walker stood at the head of the table with his legs planted. Face hard and empty.

Levi chewed slowly, eying him. He didn't so much as blink.

With a sigh, Levi flipped the paper open, looking for whatever ticked his commander off today. He skimmed the pages as he turned them.

"Stop."

Levi focused on the page before him, and his hands curled in. He focused on relaxing them. 'Mysterious Hero Saves Woman From Fatal Fire'. She lived then. Good. A little bit of the tension he'd been carrying around the last few days drained away.

But wait, this was a problem. Half way down the page was a sketch of his face. A very good one. He didn't bother reading the article because that was enough. In a small town like Canton? Someone was bound to recognize him, especially since he and the other soldiers had only 'moved' there six months ago. They kept a seriously low profile, but in a town where everybody knew everybody, strangers were noticed.

He folded it up and tossed the paper on the table. It skidded to a stop, and Walker slapped it up.

Pointing it at him, he said, "Your little fuck-up was enough of a risk on its own. Erratic dead, Chaolt still at large."

Levi's chest tightened. No, he hadn’t been able to save the erratic, and people had been put in danger. One more life lost, one more point in the enemy’s favor, and that fucking sucked.

But his only fault was not finding the guy in time. And he'd been trying, but was unable to pin anything down. "I told you -- "

"I know what you told me, and what I saw. You didn't find the Erratic because you were distracted, chasing after some tail."

Levi felt his powers flare, and he knew his eyes were starting to glow.

They all chased some occasionally, seeing to the needs of their bodies to keep their minds sharp. And yes, he'd been known for chasing his fair share. Sex was free and uncomplicated when there were so many willing human women. A one night stand left little risk of exposure, so they all 'chased' when they needed to.

But that wasn't what had happened at all. As attractive as the woman had been, as hungry as she'd made him... something had been wrong. He couldn't pinpoint the Chaolt, or the Erratic, and not for lack of trying.

"Fuck you. That wasn't it, and you know it."

"Bullshit. Take care of this, today."

Walker left them room while Levi yanked back hard on his anger, the heat shimmer before his eyes an indication that he was way out of control.

With a deep breath, Levi leaned back in his chair with his hands behind his head. Breathe in, breathe out, mind blank. Slowly, the fire inside him subsided.

He'd take care of it. He couldn't wait to, actually. 


What did that mean?




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He approached gingerly across the grass, not wanting to startle her.

She sat by the creek at her cozy new rental home, courtesy of the apartment management company. He'd knocked on her door, but got no answer. When he'd gone around to see if she was in the backyard, he'd seen her sitting there in the sunlight.

Her eyes were closed, arms crossed over her knees, face turned up to and outlined by the sunshine. Her silky braid hung down her back, shining with coppery light.

She took his breath away.

He hung back a minute, in the shade of a nearby evergreen. With a thought, he extinguished his cigarette and put it behind his ear.

It had been a week and a half since the fire.

She looks good. Healthy. Back to normal.

Her mouth turned down and she put her cheek down on her knees. Perhaps normal was still a ways away. Understandably.

A slight pressure in his chest caused his voice to come out raspy.

“Hey...” He cleared his throat. “Sorry to bother you.”

She sat straighter, swiping away the moisture that had gathered in her eyes. Surprise registered on her face as she looked his way. He almost smiled, she looked so shocked.

She stood up, wiping her palms on her denim capris.

“Um, hi.” Her eyes skittered from his face to his hands and back again.

Suddenly he was unsure of himself, palms sweaty. It was an odd feeling.

“I... I just wanted to see how you were. Since the fire.”

She kind of nodded. “I'm okay. You know... Thanks to you.”

He rubbed his neck and looked at her from under his brow.

She turned her gaze to the river, seeing a different scene.

“I was in and out of consciousness, but I can remember a lot of it.”

She turned back to him, tilting her head to the side.

“It's kind of hard to forget a guy with glowing eyes and hands, controlling fire as he carries you to safety.”

His chest tightened, and he peered at her from the shade. Shit.

With a shake of his head, he crossed his arms. “You must have been hallucinating. That much smoke inhalation…” He smiled in a way he hoped looked understanding, but it felt tight and flat.

Brooke shook her own head, looking down at the ground.

“I thought maybe I was at first, but the evidence suggests otherwise.”

She gestured at her still bandaged leg. Meeting his eyes again, she said, “There was no way I was getting out under my own power. There was no way anyone was getting out of there. Without some kind of miracle.”

“No miracle,” he said pointedly, leaning forward for emphasis. “Just lots of luck”

She considered him, unsmiling.

“I know what I saw.”


Dammit. Levi sighed and pinched the bridge of his nose, his mood suddenly really freakin' sour. He didn't need this.

“Look, you were delusional. Dying.”

The moment he'd seen her in the stairwell had almost stopped his heart. She'd looked relieved. Happy. And mostly dead.

Even now, his chest hurt a little remembering it.

He looked her in the eyes. Living, blue, stubborn eyes.

“I didn't do anything but run you out of there. Anything more is your imagination.”

He gritted his teeth and added, “The police put my picture in the paper. Please ask them to stop. Tell them you made me up, or imagined it, or -- "

"It was me."

"What?"

"It was me. I work at the paper, and I asked my boss to help me find you."

"Why?"

"To thank you. For saving my life." She turned to the side and blew out a breath. "And to see...," she gestured with one hand, "If what I remembered was real."

"It wasn't."

She nodded with a smile that didn't reach her eyes.

"Thank you. How ever you did it. I'll tell them to stop printing your picture now."

His eyebrows went up. It was going to be that easy?

She walked closer, until she stood in the shadow of the tree with him. She looked into his eyes. Here in the shadows her eyes were darker, endless. Beautiful.

She offered one uncrossed hand. "I'm Brooke."

Levi gave her hand a slow shake. “Nice to meet you, Brooke.”

It suited her. Lovely blue eyes, and that smile he remembered that sparkled like the creek behind her. She wasn’t smiling now, though, and this close he could see dark skin under her eyes, and how pale she was.

She cocked her head to the side, her soft, cool hand still in his grasp.

“Can I ask your name?”

He considered a moment. Did it matter if she learned it now? “Levi.”

“Levi,” she said, and then nodded. “Thank you again, Levi.”

He nodded and reluctantly let her hand go. The silence stretched between them as they stared at one another.

“Okay then,” he said. “Glad you're okay. See you around.”

With a two-finger salute he turned to leave. He'd only taken a couple of steps when he heard her say his name again quietly.

“Yeah?”

“There was one more thing I wanted to know.” She walked into the sunlight, favoring her left leg ever so slightly.

“Sure,” he said, putting his hands in his back pockets.

She wrapped her arms around her middle, and when she looked at him, her eyes were troubled.

“Did you start the fire?”




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“You’re accusing me of the setting the fire?”, he asked quietly. Levi crossed his arms over his chest, leather jacket creaking with the motion. Brooke couldn’t miss the warning undertones of his voice.

Her chin went up a notch.

“I think I’d be stupid not to. I almost died in that fire and I-” Her voice broke, and she shook her head and looked away blindly. “And even though you saved me, I just can’t excuse that if you did. That other guy, he died, and a lot of people lost their homes.”

"Of course I didn't. I saved you."

“Let’s pretend for a second that I hallucinated. Didn’t see you walking through fire unharmed. Let’s also pretend, that I didn’t see your arms glowing and - and your pupils b-burning,” she stuttered. “You were still there, in front of the building when we ran into each other. Twice. Why? Canton doesn’t exactly have a booming tourism industry,” she added.

Quieter, she said, “Now let’s pretend that I really did see all of that. What am I supposed to think?”

The frustration she’d felt for days leaked into her voice, making it raspy and wavery. “That it’s just one huge coincidence that a guy who can somehow control fire just happened to be outside my building before it exploded and burned?”

She kept thinking of the other resident, how he might have died. How he might have passed out just like her, only to awaken when it was too late. How it must have felt to have burns like the one on her ankle and foot, but everywhere. She'd had nightmares ever since the fire.

“Brooke, I didn’t cause the explosion,” Levi said, gentler. “After we bumped into each other, I’d only gone a few blocks when everything happened. I’d seen you walk in to that building and I…” Levi shook his head. “I was wishing I could say yes to coffee. I just went looking for you.”

Brooke swallowed. He'd wanted to say yes to coffee. With her. It made her want to smile, made her a little giddy, but...

Brooke put her hands in her hair and gripped it tightly, closing her eyes. Why couldn’t she just let it go? Chalk it up to the chemicals in the air and the lack of oxygen instead of this crazy idea?

“Did I lose my mind, Levi?”

She looked at him again, eyes damp and pleading, heart pounding. “Did I see you controlling fire? When you saved me?”

He only paused a second, and the look in his eyes was enough to convince her he was telling the truth. Pity.

She had imagined it.

“You were hallucinating. There are a lot fumes in fires, a lot of chemicals…” He shrugged. “Who knows what you were breathing in.”

Brooke’s shoulders slumped. “Yeah, I guess.” She gave a humorless laugh and scrubbed her eye with the heel of her hand. “Sorry. For the picture. For the craziness.”

Levi closed the gap between them, stopping just a foot away.

“You’ve been through a lot, Brooke. Take it easy on yourself. You’re not crazy.”

Brooke looked at him with a ‘yeah right’ expression, and he smiled at her, causing her heart to thump in her chest.

“All humans are a little crazy. The world is crazy." His smile dissolved. "Chaotic."

Brooke sighed and nodded, feeling like an idiot. He was right. What she thought she saw, wasn't real. Couldn't be real.

“You just need a little time. I’m sorry this happened to you, but you’ll be okay.”

He was right, of course. She’d been okay when her dad left, she’d been okay being the sole provider for her and her mother, and she would be okay now.

“Thanks, Levi,” she said with a little smile as she looked up at him. She immediately blushed and looked away. This close he was even more handsome, and his eyes... they were too direct and too warm for her comfort.

Her breath caught in her chest when his hand came up, and she looked back up at him, heart in her throat. It stopped inches from her cheek, and then he let it drop.

“Take care of yourself Brooke,” he said with a half smile, and turned away.

“You too Levi,” Brooke murmured.

He gave her a little wave but didn’t turn around.

In the vacuum his presence had left, she could feel her nightmares waiting for her.


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Levi crossed the street to his car.

He’d hated seeing the vibrant woman he’d first met on the street changed into a somber and anxious version of herself. He hated that he couldn’t see her again, couldn’t stick around to see that brighter version of herself return.

Hated too, that he had to lie to her, but it was in his favor that what she was saying sounded so crazy.

A guy that could control fire? That only happened in the movies.

He took the cigarette from behind his ear and put it between his lips with a sardonic smile, the end already cherry red.

As he opened his car door, he felt odd. Unsettled. Pausing a minute, he looked up and down the street, but saw nothing to explain his disquiet.

He got in the driver’s seat and shut the door, sitting quietly.

Five minutes later, he was sure.

The enemy was near. Somewhere. Still impossible to pinpoint.

Fuuuuuuck.

Luckily he didn’t feel any drain on his powers yet, so that meant they had some time.

There was only one reason the enemy would be here, and that was for an Erratic. That meant Brooke was in danger until they could find the Chaolt, the Erratic, or both.

Guess this wasn’t the last he’d see of her after all. The little thrill he felt at the thought gave him pause.

That was a dangerous thing, human emotions getting in the way of his mission. Which was to protect humans, fight the Chaolt, right the balance. And then fuck off back to his world.

Levi dialed the compound and started his car while it rang. When he heard a ‘Yo’ on the other end of the line, he said, “We’ve got another situation. Get the guys together, I’m one hour out.” Then he hung up, slammed the car in gear, and peeled away from the curb.



Friday, December 4, 2015

Artsy Fartsy

Did a painting where I used regular watercolor and then glitter watercolor wash in matching colors. It's so hard to show the shine.



Monday, November 30, 2015

Chapter 1 & Cover

Wall of text incoming (the formatting needs some work ) and please remember this is an early draft. I will be asking you for in depth critique later if you feel like offering it! For now though, I'd just like to know what you think. Alternate title suggestions are also welcome!

Also, curse words and sex warning. :p







Chapter 1
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Brooke opened the newspaper with a little shake, but it continued to quiver from the fine tremor in her hands. The convenience store faded away as she scanned the pages, flipping rapidly to the middle section.
There it was. Her name, alone, on the cover of the huge seasonal wedding insert. Finally.
Her breath caught in the center of her chest. All these weeks to prepare, and she was still in shock.
There were only a few advantages to being a graphic artist for a small town newspaper, but she was looking at the biggest one.
She'd been an assistant the The Canton News for three years, but with her supervisor Adam's unexpected job offer from a big advertising agency, she'd been the natural choice. The only choice really, if she was honest. She'd earned it, she’d deserved it, and she’d hit it out of the park with this project. It was huge money maker for the paper because it was sent out to every other paper in the area, and had large, glossy, expensive full-color ads. Now instead of an assistant, she had complete creative control.
She'd probably need to hire her own assistant now.
The thought prompted a little squeal, and she paid for two papers at the counter. Once outside, she slung her purse over her shoulder and held the papers carefully with both hands. Her mother would want to see it, might even frame her copy. She wasn’t about to fold them up in her purse and put creases in them.
She set off toward the post office, but now that her paper was in her hands, she didn’t need to rush. She felt happier than she had in months. Years, maybe. For all her hard work to finally pay off, felt amazing. Besides, it was her first day off in a few weeks, and she was going to enjoy it.
Breathing in deeply, she smiled at the smell of spring in the air. All of Canton seemed to be brighter this morning; crocuses and daffodils bloomed in window boxes and the bright sunshine made the old buildings look decades newer.

She made her way to the post office. She was vaguely aware of a man standing nearby and was about to open the door when a large hand reached out and opened it before her.
“Allow me,” a deep voice said.
She looked up to say thanks, and her breath caught. The man was...magnificent. That was the only word. He had dark hair and light amber eyes framed by the kind of eyelashes that made women jealous. On top of a brawler body that would make men jealous.
"Thank you." It came out breathier than she intended.
He gave her a sexy grin, and a slow once over that made her skin warm. That look would have sent her running any other day. There was a reason she was good at being a workaholic -- too shy for a social life.
But today with joy and pride simmering inside of her -- she smiled at him as she walked by. Slowly. With full eye contact.

After the paper was on her way to her mother, Brooke came out of the post office half expecting to see him still standing there, but he was nowhere in sight. With a gusty sigh, she started for home.
She thought briefly of her sparse apartment waiting for her. Maybe it was time she actually decorated a little bit, put some pictures up. Maybe, a little celebration spree was in order. She’d finally got what she had been working so hard toward, so why not?
The thought put the smile back on her face, just because she could have a spree. All her bills were paid, the monthly check sent to her mother along with her newspaper, and there was not one other person she was responsible to. And, she had the rest of the day to do... whatever. It was a good feeling.
She was smiling at birds flitting in the trees when she almost ran into someone on the sidewalk.
“Oops, sorry. Excuse me,” she said to a large leather-clad chest, moving to the side.
His movements mirrored hers, and quickly they found themselves doing the uncomfortable shuffle of strangers trying unsuccessfully to get out of each other's way.
She let out a sheepish laugh, and finally looked up. She inhaled quickly. It was him. “Sorry, are you trying to get around me?” she asked with a blush.
“No ma'am, I'm trying to dance with you,” he said holding up his hands in a waltz position, amber eyes twinkling. “But you're making it awfully hard.”
Her laugh bubbled out at his unexpected response to their awkward situation. When a smile flashed across his face, razor sharp, she felt something she rarely gave in to: impulse.
With a grin, she stepped up into the circle of his arm and put her hand loosely in his. Instantly he was waltzing her across the sidewalk, and she grinned up at him. Then he spun her out to his side with one hand, the world passing by in dizzying whirl. One hand still around hers, he bowed, golden eyes still on her. She curtsied in response, laughing, and then pulled her purse back up on her shoulder.
"Listen, this may be insane -- it probably is insane, since I don't know you and you don't me," she said, stopping for a half-second to breathe. What was she doing? "But there's a coffee shop around the corner. Would you like to... go with me?" She held her breath, surprised by the compulsion.
His eyes, so bright in the sunshine before, darkened as his smile faded.
"As much as I'd like to... I can't." His mouth twisted. "I'm... looking for someone."
"Oh... okay. Of course," she said, blushing. How silly she'd been. A man that looked like that couldn't be single. "Well... maybe some other time then."
The look on his face said there would be no other time.
She gave him a little smile. "Thanks for the dance."
He just nodded, hands in his pockets.
When she turned away, her disappointment was tempered by the fact that, even if they didn't have coffee, their interaction had still been...fun. It must have lasted less than five seconds, but that little dance would make her smile all day. A waltz with a handsome stranger was just icing on her happy-cake.
She was smiling when she entered her almost-vacant apartment building. She even had a smile for her creepy neighbor Charlie when he almost ran her over in his haste to get out of the elevator. She was still smiling when she put the key in her lock.

It would be the last time she smiled today.

---
Levi's jaw clenched as she walked away. He couldn't change his mind, even though he wanted to. Seeing that bright smile falter had made him feel like an asshole. Any other day and he would have jumped at the chance at something as normal as coffee with a pretty lady. But damn it, war didn't leave much time for normal. Or flirtation.
He turned away with a curse.
Damn... that smile she'd given him had been full octane.
She's not your type.
The church-on-Sunday was the opposite of his type actually, but it didn't stop him from wanting her. She looked like a piece of sunshine had materialized in a floral skirt and a jaunty ponytail. With beautiful blue eyes, and that smile that lit a spark inside him as quick as striking a match. One so hot, he could probably light his cigarette by it. But he would have to ignore it and stay out here, because right now, he was looking for another sensation.
He didn't have much to go on. General planar coordinates and an ability to see a certain wavelength of light. 
All he knew was there was an Erratic nearby, and that meant the Chaolt weren't far behind. 
It was hard to tell which direction he should go, and like a perilous game of hot and cold, he’d have to pick a direction and see what effect it had on him. He was expecting the buzz in the back of his head, more vibration than sound. Or the twitchy, wild energy that filled him when they were close. At the very least, the hint of burning plastic wafting on the air.
So far, no matter which direction he walked, nothing.
Very fucking frustrating.
Being close to a Chaolt was anything but pleasant, it was also deadly. They were a race as ancient as the Elementals themselves, but with an affinity for death and destruction. Every elemental power could be used for creation or devastation, and without exception the Chaolt preferred the latter. They would find Erratics like the one he was looking for, humans with latent elemental powers, and cause them to basically self-destruct. This usually resulted in enormous collateral damage.
The loss of human life could be staggering. And all anyone had to do was watch the news to see that they were losing the war against the Chaolt. The death toll from these 'natural' disasters were steadily rising every year.
If it were just the humans involved, he wouldn't care as much.
He paused a step, half turning to see the flash off glass as the woman entered a nearby building.
Maybe.
But, as this world tipped farther away from order & harmony, the closer his own world was to destruction. All creation, even. Chaos had the ability to destroy everything. Which is why he was pacing the sidewalks of Canton on this fine spring morning, to try to find the Erratic before the Chaolt did.

He'd only gone two blocks when he was rocked by a building exploding into flames behind him - the building his lovely smiling woman had entered. There was an unfamiliar sensation, as if his heart fell down into his knees. He began to run. Legs pumping, he dialed 911 on his cellphone.
“There was an explosion, the building is on fire! There are people inside.” He shouted the address and hung up on the dispatcher.
His next call was to the soldiers, and when he sent a breathless prayer up to the heavens, it was that they would get there first.

----
There was no air.
There was no fucking air. Wherever the fire was, it was eating all the oxygen. Behind her rising panic, she was surprised that she didn't really feel any heat yet, but the smoke was thick and she couldn't get a good breath.
As soon as she had turned her key in the lock, she'd felt a little rumble. Like thunder almost. And then the building's fire alarm had gone off. It happened frequently enough that she hadn't been worried. The alarms were sensitive, and would usually go off for something as simple as an over-cooked meal. They always quit after a minute or two.
She had stood there at her door waiting for it to turn off for too many precious minutes. Just another burned dinner, right?
Stupid, stupid, stupid.
When she had finally caught the scent of smoke in the air, she was still only slightly alarmed. Stove fire? She hadn't thought the two, the smoke and the rumble, were related.
She hadn't rushed on her way to the stairwell.
Half way down the sixteen flights of stairs, the smoke began to thicken, to choke her. Black, acrid, and hot, it burned her throat with every inhalation. It was then that she realized there must have been some kind of explosion. She wondered if she should try to enter a hallway and try to find an open apartment to get to a fire escape, but knew the chances of that were pretty slim. She'd made the decision to press on down the stairs, collar over her mouth and nose.
Now, somewhere between the second and fourth floor, she was practically crab-crawling down the stairs, trying to keep below the smoke. But there was just so little air. Stopping for air for a moment because she was dizzy, she knew she was in serious trouble.
How many stairs to the next landing? She couldn't tell. How many stairs had she come down since the last time she stopped? She couldn't remember. The edges of her vision were fuzzy and starting to blacken, narrowing down to the stairs right below her feet.
Got to go faster. One more stair. One more. One more.
Her progress was slower than it needed to be, and her tunnel vision almost didn't allow her to see the orange glow that blossomed on the landing above her. Through her panic, the heat she was descending into finally registered, but her dress was already clinging to her skin with sweat.
“Oh God. Oh God.”
It was too much. She had to stop to breathe. She sagged down, hands still on the rail, to sit on the last stair of the set.
I just need air. I just need a minute to catch my breath.

When she opened her eyes again, the smoke was thicker, the orange glow brighter. Flames licked underneath the door on the landing. She had lost consciousness for a time, and that scared her. But the fear was muffled, like it was underneath layer upon layer of cotton batting.
Even when she saw the hallucination, she just couldn’t find the energy to be concerned.
The handsome guy from before was there, the one she danced with, walking through a tunnel of flame towards her.
She didn't know why her mind chosen to conjure him, but now, at the end, she was just grateful she had company.
Very good looking company. She smiled. Even if he was on fire.
Flames danced across his shoulders and his hair itself seemed ablaze. His jacket from earlier was gone, and swirls of molten color moved across his arms. She could see that even his eyes, which had been that lovely golden color, now glowed orange as he came closer.
In a shimmering bubble of heat waves he knelt beside her, gesturing to sweep flames off her lower leg.
With dampened amazement, she realized she had been on fire. It didn't hurt. It just felt odd, like her skin there was five sizes too small.
He gently put an arm under her back and legs, and pulled her close as he stood up.
“You're gonna be okay. I'm going to get you out of here.”
Brooke nodded and turned towards him. When she met his eyes, vertigo overtook her. It was like looking into the window of a furnace, and the harder she tried to focus, the more it was like she was falling into the flames. She looked away and into the fire in front of them, blinking. Confused.
She wanted to ask him if he was trying to dance with her again. But when she drew her breath to speak, it burned her throat and all she could do was cough. There was no catching her breath, no relief from the burning in her chest and throat, and every attempt was noisy and painful.
He carried her to an impassible wall of flame, and she knew this was it. There was no way to get through without burning, and the inky shadows at the edges of her vision told her that she wouldn’t make it either way. She hoped she would be unaware of it.
Weakly, she tried to cover another cough, but dizziness swallowed her again as it wracked her. Her hand fell limply to her side and her head fell back. She stared right into the mass of hungry flames. And he carried her straight into them.
She expected pain, but was blessedly relieved to not feel a thing.
Her eyelids were heavy and her eyesight was blurry and dark, but what she could see of the hell before them was not what she expected. Somehow, as if they were in a bubble of glass, the fire swirled over and around, but never touched them. She was mesmerized.
Beautiful.
Right before her vision went completely black, it looked like a solid wall before them began to incinerate - white hot flames melting wood, concrete and steel alike. It was only a moment until the blue sky was framed by angry pillars of black smoke.
That was the last thing she saw as her eyelids fluttered down and the darkness consumed her.
---
Levi felt her go limp and knew she was succumbing to the smoke. She’d stopped coughing and he could no longer even hear her wheezing breaths. With great effort, he was keeping the flames from touching them, but he could do nothing about the smoke and super-heated gasses from the burning building. If he didn’t get her air now, she would die. And so might he.
He may be immune to fire, but not so much to smoke. His own chest was tight, his throat burning, and his mortal body too, could soon yield to the toxic air. Oh the irony, that he could die in a fire.
Hell. Fucking. No.
Levi prayed that there were no onlookers paying close attention, and with a thought, he incinerated the wall before him, creating an opening directly to outside. He stumbled through, and greedily the flames behind him instantly filled the space where they had been.
Coughing, dizzy - with her in his arms and steam and smoke rising from them both, he carried her away from the building. He laid her as gently as he could on the pavement, dropping down, shaky, beside her. It had taken a lot out of him to use his powers to that extent, to control them.
Around him were several urgent conversations at once, sirens, but he couldn't focus on anything. All he could do was cough. A heavy hand grabbed his shoulder, trying to help him sit up.
His brothers were there, right there. Somehow, they'd known.
"She needs air,” he rasped, chest heaving. “She's not breathing. Get her some fresh air.”
Ajax was already kneeling beside her, two fingers under her jaw.
“Ajax -”. He coughed. “Give her some air-”
“I am man, it's ok. I am.”
Suddenly Levi's own lungs spasmed.  The smoky air had been sucked forcefully out of his lungs, and fresh, pure air pushed in to take it's place. Godamn, it hurt. His back arched with the icy pain. Ajax kept pushing in a little clean air with every inhalation, forcing out the hot, heavy air that filled his lungs.
He waved his hand in Ajax's direction ineffectively. “Not me asshole. I'm okay,” he said, gulping air despite his words. “Give her the air.” His lovely smiling girl had almost died in his arms, still smiling.
“There's enough for both of you,” Ajax said gently, with a grave smile. Levi was relieved that she had started breathing on her own, though it still sounded labored and strident.
“Where their any others?”, he asked as Walker grabbed his hand and helped him stand.
“No,” said Walker. “The landlord said there were only two residents missing.” He looked down at the slight figure on the ground. “Here's one.”
Levi, hands on his knees, squinted into the sun to look again at Walker. “The other one, it's going to be the Erratic. I didn't get to him in time.”
Ice blue eyes took in the burning building and then came back to him. "Obviously."
Levi hung his head. “Fuck.” He stood straight and pushed both hands through his sooty hair.
“She's coming around,” said Ajax, looking up at Levi, whose gaze was again pinned on her.
“Time to go." The order came from Walker, and he'd never wanted to refuse so much in his life.
Levi knelt down by her head quickly, noticing the pale tracks on her face left by sweat and tears. He hated to leave her there, on the ground. Alone and vulnerable. He knew she'd be scared and in pain when she awoke. But necessity demanded that they were nowhere around when questions started flying. They needed to leave now, while the confusion would keep them from notice.
He leaned close to her ear and said, “You're going to be okay now. You don't have to be afraid. We'll get a second chance at that coffee.” He was lying, but it felt like the right thing to say to a woman who had almost died in his arms. Who he'd almost killed, with his negligence.
Her eyelids flickered, and in a split second Levi stood and he and the other soldiers were walking away.
Before they left, he let a paramedic know there was another victim behind the building. Even as they rushed to her, Levi just couldn't leave. He hung back in the deep shadows under the trees, until an even larger shadow joined him.
He swallowed, bristling at his commander's heavy stare.
"You want to tell me what the fuck happened here?"
Levi's jaw clenched. If only he knew.
"I couldn't pinpoint the Chaolt. I couldn't find the Erratic in time."
Voice hard, Walker said, "I figured that out already, and we're going to talk about that when we get back to base. I mean, what happened...here?" And he gestured to the woman being lifted on a backboard.
Levi shrugged, jaw hard. "Just trying to keep casualties down." His voice was gruff from smoke, and something else.
Longing?
Levi turned away, and after another brief glance at the woman on the ground, Walker followed him.















OOO Also!!

In our dropbox folder I put some spises for you and also some videos.

New project stuff

Only a 3rd or so of the way through making a complete set of stain glass for Minecraft. These are a
lot of hard work so I wanted to show them off!

Netherbrick texture I made


They added another tree to the game so I did too.


black


pink


magenta


yellow


green


This one was the most work so far. Lt blue


10 more to go lol

I love my sis Happy Birthday and Happy Thanksgiving!

I did indeed send your package. I hope it arrives OK. Let me know when it's there and I'd like to be on the phone hehe

Thanks so much for well wishes sis. Especially regarding Steve that was beautiful.

The picture is a coloring book page that is done in the style of stain glass. What I tried to do was some really tight watercolor and color gradations.It's watercolor and watercolor marker.

My surgery is possibly maybe going to be rescheduled in January and I will possibly
maybe be able to do it *sigh lol

I got a sample of Rectified Birch Tar in the mail. I let a lot of girls smell it and they say it makes them want to chew on men right away. It smells like liquid smoke, barbecue, and brisket lol

Tday prep


Family tday pic


great pic of Will


Orange Cake


Blendoku level I'm proud of lol


Saturday, November 28, 2015

News post

Ok, so news! Let's see.

Whacked my hair off on Halloween (pics in pic post), and got a part time job at the Dollar Tree on my birthday. My first day is Monday, but after that I will be working Fri. & Sun. and possibly Sat. too. I've given up on my freelance writing making any money, and more importantly, so has Gary. :p
Which is okay, really. It's time for me to try something else. It will be nice to have a little spending money again, and to be able to do things like send packages.

Weight is completely stalled around my first big goal (200). We ate a very carb heavy diet for 2 weeks because of money and then birthdays/thanksgiving/also money. Remember the pie buffet I made for myself? Lol. And I gained 10 LBS! /dies Hopefully, it will only take a week or two to fall off, but in the meantime my old jeans fit again, and I had to move my ring back to the old finger because it got so tight it was hurting on the new one. DOH!

And oh honey, I felt so bad on carbs again. Headaches, stomach aches, GAS, pimples and painful dry skin at once. Body aches, dry/sore throat, I mean you name it. I also noticed that my concentration/fatigue was worse. I really think carbs are poison to me. I mean, I know it doesn't help that I basically tortured myself for hours on end with sweets, but still. That in itself is a big problem. I start eating carbs, and I can't/don't stop. I feel soooo much better already, and I've only been back on keto for one day.

How was your Thanksgiving? Best thing you ate? My in-laws had to pay for us to rent a car and for the gas for us to get there, and I feel horrible about that. It sucks so bad always being flat broke. I hope your money situation is looking up? Hopefully December will be better for us in that department, with me getting a part time job and Gary is supposed to get a retention bonus.

Mom had some kind of mini-breakdown and threw away a large brown paper bag of jewelry and rocks and important papers and purchases she'd made. Hundreds of dollars of jewelry I guess, that she'd pretty much been buying since we left Texas. I feel bad for her, really bad, but it seems like it is going to prompt her to see a professional and for that I am grateful. I think that she's needed to for decades. I sincerely hope that they can help her at least function more like a modern adult and make better choices.

I guess that's all my news for now. I'm certain there was more? But I can always post again later. :p

Enjoy the pictures, and when you reply to this post I will put up my first chapter to read, but I just can't handle posting it and then wondering for days if you read it/liked it/hated it/think it's terrible. :p
Gentle critique is of course welcome, and I'll have a new cover to show for it soon, under a new (and permanent) pen name.

Talk to you soon I hope!




Picture-heavy post

My camera on this new phone SUCKS. Honestly it makes me so mad. The last phone I had spoiled me. So, the most recent ones aren't that good, but it has been about a month since I shared any so it's time!



 Kids pretending to look at the stars indoors. So cute. <3

 Willow in my glasses.

 Mrs. Piggy -- I mean Maggie, in my glasses. :p

 Woods selfie.



 My fav kind of pictures.




 BLOOMING LICHEN! I had no idea it even did that lol.






 Willow putting in a real pair of earrings for the first time.


 Super hero day at school for spirit week.


 Her tiny head makes ours look so big!

 Super hero day at home too!

 At Thanksgiving.

 At Thanksgiving.


And selfie central, because I actually really love my haircut. I love to just roll out of bed, brush my
fingers through it, and be done. Of course, hundreds  of bad pictures were discarded to 
get these good ones. :p Last one was on my birthday, because even though I was hoe alone, I wanted
to dress up and feel pretty!